Blog Posts - ~Inspire Love~

It's a new dawn, Its a new day.

11/20/2011

Today I Am Empowered. Like a switch has gone off inside of me, saying " I refuse to be brought down by you. I no longer allow myself to be pulled down into depression by your insecurities. I no longer allow myself to ride on the emotional roller coaster, and allow my happiness and self worth to depend on you and what you say and how you treat me.

I am worthy and deserving of receiving an abundance of all things that are good in life. I embrace life. I embrace love. I embrace bliss. I allow myself to be enchanted.

I am letting go.

I shed a layer of old skin, like the snake, rejuvinating myself. I spread my wings like the butterfly, allowing myself to fly. I soar above the great panorama of landscape, like the eagle, aware of all, and expanding my focus. I release the old to welcome the new. I breathe in love to release all fears.

Today is a brand new day.
I set yourself free and I set myself free. And I know that I am beautiful. I send you love and I send myself love; unconditional love.

I am strong. I am at peace.

All is well in my world.
And so it is.

Namaste.

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11/17/2011

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11/17/2011

how can you be so cruel
and say I'm everything you were looking for
everything you could ask for
everything you wanted
and more.
and then change your mind
like it never meant anything
like I was nothing
like you don't respect me
and you dont' value me
and your heart is not breaking
like mine is
into a tiny pieces
that have been glued together before
so many band aids
lead to sad days
and insecurities
and its hard to believe
what anyone says
I want to hear the words
I love you
I want you
you're the best
but do I believe them?
when someone can change their mind
at the drop of a hat
making me feel on top of the world one day
and then crush beneath it the next
my tear stained cheeks
can not erase
the memories that haunt me
the pain the cuts through me
the pounding disbelief in my chest
that I have to give up
on you and me
that I have to give up
on fairy tales
that I have to give up
believing that a miracle could save us.
trying to decide
if its you
if its me
or if its both and not meant to be
I never wanted to be the one
to be the bridge to your
next true love
thats supposed to be me
why couldn't you see that
why couldnt you see yourself
as I did
why couldn't you see
that I would have never given up on you
that I'm not her
that life could be so brilliant
if you'd only let it be
now I love you
and I hate you
in the same breath
so confused, frustrated, and disapointed
do you know how much I hurt?
is that why you're quiet
why you dont' talk
why you dont' write
except to say maybe one line
to talk to me like I am a business transaction
a stranger
a bus driver
the taxi driver
a nobody, a passerby
instead of the person who loved you
and that you were so afraid to love back
I'm a good person
I don't understand you
even though I try
I can't see the truth
or what is lies
or denials
of what was, what is, and what could have been.
who knows.
how could you be so cruel
and then say we should be friends
but not even treat me like a friend
and I am here all alone
with a black void in my heart
where the hope was
and the breeze blows through it
and cuts me so deep
that I can't even breathe
or see through my tears
And it pisses me off
that you probably never shed one tear
for me
while I could cry rivers for you
why am I so cruel to me
to let you make me feel this way
to let one person allow me to feel so broken
to let one person decide my happiness
I wanna scream
and shake you
and make you see inside of me
everything from beginning to end
what you had, what you missed out
and what a part of me has died for.
And I feel so stupid.
Because I miss you so much.

emerged from the fire...

10/16/2011

emerged from the fire...

10/16/2011

I found some posts on facebook today that I can really relate to. I am going to share them with you here....

I do not define myself by how many roadblocks have appeared in my path.
I define myself by the courage I’ve found to forge new roads.
I do not define myself by how many disappointments I’ve faced.
I define myself by the forgiveness and the faith I have found to begin again.
I do not define myself by how long a relationship lasted.
... I define myself by how much I have loved, and been willing to love again.
I do not define myself by how many times I have been knocked down.
I define myself by how many times I have struggled to my feet.
I am not my pain.
I am not my past.
I am that which has emerged from the fire.
♥
Unkown~.

and....

All the years you have waited for them to
“make it up to you” and all the energy you
expended trying to make them change
[or make them pay] kept the old wounds
from healing and gave pain from the past free
... rein to shape and even damage your life.
And still they may not have changed. Nothing
you have done has made them change. Indeed,
they may never change. Inner peace is found by
changing yourself, not the people who hurt you.
And you change yourself for yourself, for the joy,
serenity, peace of mind, understanding, compassion,
laughter, and bright future that you get.

|Lewis Smedes|
~Ross.

The Changing Seasons

10/15/2011

Change is definately in the air-- from the leaves changing into a bouquet of reds, oranges, yellows, and green that eventually make their dance to the ground to the chill in the air-- change is here whether we like it or not. There are a lot of changes in life too... we are lifelong learners no matter what possession or place in life, and as such variety is the spice of life, right? But sometimes we fight it...we resist change..we're afraid of it...instead of going with the flow, we dig in our heals--it may be something that is incredibly good for our souls or our bodies and yet we fight it. Change is scary, yes, but sometimes alltogether necessary for our growth and movement through life. Wouldn't it be better to go into it empowered, as prepared as we can with our faith that everything WILL work out okay eventually (even if we can't see the hidden blessings at the time), and take the leaps of faith that may be necessary for change to occur? Now is as good a time as any to truly shed the old layers of ourselves-- the world needs the new and improved you!!! Release the past, let go of your tattered and torn ideas of what should and could have been, and find yourself in the present moment--- healed, inspired, engaged, empowered, ready, and willing. Let go of that which no longer brings you joy and no longer serves your true purpose here. Fill your space up with positive energy to the best of your abilities, no matter where you go or where you are led.... Ask for help along the way and trust that everything truly is unfolding as it is meant to. The really crappy part about resisting is change is that sometimes (usually?) it just goes on right ahead without us, and then it becomes uncomfortable, and super scary, heart breaking even. So, I'm going to go about my merry way.... accepting...acknowledging..releasing...healing... taking little leaps of faith and try my best to gloriously and whole heartedly embrace the changes that I have made and the changes that are on their way. Life is good... Life IS beautiful .It truly is about love...loving ourselves...loving others...loving life... the rest is merely details.

Namaste.

I Am In The Presence of Love

8/4/2011

I seen these words the other day: "I Am In the Presence of Love" and it became like a repeated tape recorder in my head.

I Am in the Presence of Love.
It feels so good just to think it!
Then I moved on to
I AM the Presence of Love.
It is time to be the Presence of Love in my own life and to do my best to be the Presence of Love in all of my interactions with other people. Am I being kind to others? Am I releasing judgements and jealousy? Am I being compassionate in my thoughts and action? Am I expressing my true thoughts in a loving way? Am I being irritable and irritated with others, and if so, why? These are questions to ask myself throughout the day. I'm definately no where near perfect and I dont' claim to be! But I am learning and I am trying to be very conscious of what I say and to start taking steps in my life to transform my life into as fearless and love filled as possible! :)

More and more signs keep showing up about taking better care of my physical self~ getting more exercise, drinking more water, eating more fruits and vegetables, having some portion control over what I eat, etc.. It seems like each day there is another reminder saying 'NOW is the time to finally take control over this aspect of my life". That is part of why I started my new facebook page "Divine Health and Healing."

At first I wanted it to serve as a support group for weight loss but then it took on a bit of a broader scope. I know that healing in all forms, no matter what it is that needs to be healed- begins with LOVE. Self love is so important, as well as breaking down the walls that we build around us. I agree with Louise Hay's work that says that our physical illness is a physical manifestation of dis-ease within us. So, this facebook group and this journey is very much about transformation; about blossoming into the butterfly and releasing the fears of opening the wings to fly!! :)

I Am The Presence of Love in my Life.
I people realized the love and joy within themselves and connected with their spirit--- rather than always seeking these things outside of themselves, then the world would be such a more peaceful place. We are such a fear based society that even so many lightworkers waver in their trust of the Divine, depending on their moods.

Each day is a journey towards embracing my Life and the LOVE that is within me that I need to give to myself. I am learning to love all of me and all of my experiences. I am learning to let go of old patterns and beliefs that are no longer serving me at this point in my life. :)

Dear God give me the strength and motivation to take the proper steps towards embracing Divine Health and Healing into my own life. Help me also to feel fearless and free! I also pray for help with releasing any fears about expressing my TRUE Divine Self to everyone I know. I release fears about being judged by others.

Thank you for listening.
Namaste.

I Am Abundantly Provided For in All Ways

8/3/2011

Today I have seen a focus on finances and financial abundance. There are so many lessons involved for all of us. For myself, personally- I have to really be careful about what I say in regards to my financial situation. It is a process of being aware of how I describe my finances in conversations and the words that I use in my mind when I think about abundance.

I grew up, like many people, in a family who had a lot of Depression mentality and ways of thinking-- the belief that money was hard to come by and quick to leave, that is had to be struggle. It seemed to be not just a believe but a law that this was the way things was and thats the way it was-- "it's always been this way" kind of thing.

I've always felt that this way of thinking didn't quite sit right with me. Now, I feel a growing need to shed these inherited ways of thinking for good! They no longer serve me and they do not feel true within my heart. The truth is that the Universe has unlimited abundance! I am ready to tap into the flow of this abundance. I am going to the ocean of abundance with a semi truck to fill up- where in the past I think I've been going to the ocean with a bucket to fill up!

In my past experiences, money always showed up eventually and usually just in the nic of time! I've had my days of crying and desperately wondering how I could afford this or that...I've fallen into the ego-trap of believing that a lack of money was a reason to not follow my dreams. This was something to hide behind I think, to feed my fears of being successful and changing my life! Now I'm on the journey of closing the chapter of having a full time job for five years to beginning the chapter of living life as a full time student! There were other reasons that I allowed myself to resist taking this leap of faith for a couple of years- but money was definately one of them.

In the past I viewed my life as a struggle- that I had a decent paying job but high bills and was always counting my pennies at the end of the month. Now I see money flowing into my life abundantly... in the past, I thought- if things are tight with a full time job, how will I ever afford school? But, I have begun more and more to trust that
I will always be taken care of. The money will show up.

And it does!!!

Here's a little story of how trusting the money will show up, can work: I was at the Hay House I Can Do It Conference, and they were selling the usb wristbands that had all of the recordings of each workshop/keynote speaker. After the first night I decided this was something I'd love to have, because then I could re-listen to my favourite speakers/authors and I could share it with my mother and sister back home. It was $130.00. Now in my previous mindset, which no longer exists in the present moment- this was a big deal to me. I was so blessed that my sister paid for me to be able to go to the conference in the first place. But, I decided that I needed to have this wristband! lol And as I purchased it, I said that the money would show up, and I asked the angels to take care of this. Well, later that month when I got my income tax back-- it was more than I had anticipated. $130 more! The angels brought the money to me and I was soo excited and grateful!!

I am so very grateful that I've had family support and that there have been people that I received money from when I was in times of need. I have experienced guilt over this, but I was just reading Louise Hays "The Power Within You" and I need to come to peace with these emotions, express gratitude, and know that we repay each other in more ways than just money. So many of us are raised to believe that prosperity must be exchanged with prosperity. But there WILL be times when I will be able to give back to others. And we do help each other in ways such as offering advice, compassion, love, a smile etc... which are more valuable than money. So- guilt be gone!! I am grateful and I am ready to pass the good forward to others. :)

I am grateful for my experiences and for learning how to appreciate that which I receive. I forgive myself for any guilt, shame, embarassment, and fearful thoughts surrounding money.
I am ready to move forward now into a time of my life where I can easily afford that which I need. All of my bills are paid in full. All of my debts are paid in full. I can breathe easily knowing that I am taken care of now and always.

Thank you God for the lessons and the love.
xoxoxo

Meditation

7/27/2011

I just took part in a healing meditation on facebook... with music playing in t

While I did not consciously receive any messages when I asked what the angels wanted me to know...what I seen was beautiful...

In asking for healing, I seen a part of me being taken out fo my body--- all of the past fears, hurts, and negativities that hold me back; that burden that I've been holding on to that needed to be released. It was a huge blob of gross green and brown slop-- a mass covered in goo. I heard inside of me that I needed to love and appreciate this part of me too-- as it taught me lessons, showed me my strengths, and was a part of me for so long. But now, I no longer needed it.
I seen the angels begin to heal this mass... sending it light...and then, like it was wrapped in pure white cloth...and then it was spinning and twirling...the cloth being raised upwards, creating this spinning motion as the mass inside appeared to be getting smaller and smaller with the rotations of healing...and then, the cloth unwraveled, unfolded, and revealed shining rainbow light, bursting from the cloth and flocks of doves flew out of this cloth as well... I could hear the flapping of their wings as they flew past my head. I knew thats this mass had been healed in exchange for peace.

I seen myself with the ocean before me, as if I were standing on the edge of a great ship that was speading across the water at great speeds. But I was not afraid of the spead or the huge open waters before me, I felt free and alive- at peace. I could see the sun shining on the horizon-- promising a new day.

I chose to leap into the water; fearless.
I was then the mermaid; swimming with great ease. I could feel my mermaid tail moving along the water waves, pushing me along.. as I dove deeper and then rose above the water, diving, splashing...with dolphins and whales beside me. Then I was swimming, almost floating on my back, allowing the water to carry me and to feel the sunshine on my face. Bliss!!! What a wonderful feeling of such freedom.

I allow God to carry me as I dive in, fearless-- moving forward, going with the flow, and knowing that I am safe and secure all ways and alway---ready for that new day that is here, now, today.

So it is.
Amen.

Summer Lovin'

7/19/2011

Hello!

I haven't been doing much on the blog page lately- but I have been trying to keep my facebook page updated as frequently as possible. I have been blessed with the time and energy to share guidance with people there and to learn from the friends and teachers who keep showing up. Thank you to everyone there!

This summer has been a HOT one so far. I spent a glorious week at the lake last week. Once again, such a blessing to be able to go out on the lake and watch the sun set. What beauty!! It is so completely peaceful out on the water. One night we were even blessed to see the full moon, reflecting upon the dark, mysterious waters. This scene was something so awe inspiring and magical, you just wanted to soak it all up and hold it within the memory forever- to return there, to return to your Self, to return to God. Of course, we must remember that this beauty that is outside of us is within us as well. The more love and joy we realize within ourselves, the more we see and recognize and can appreciate this wonderment that is painted before us.

I was pulling some Archangel Michael cards for people last night and there was such a common theme. It has been a troubling time for many lately--it seems the energy pot has been stirred and more than ever we are meant to shake off and let go of that which no longer serves us. We have been through a lot in the past few years, and so we are definately strong enough. We are guided, gaurded and protected. May we all embrace the blessed changes which are occuring all around us.

Go forward fearlessly knowing that the angels walk with you every step of the way. Ask them to guide your thoughts & your actions in the direction of love & your true life's purpose.
It is time to acknowledge how great the light is; to see it within yourself, so that we no longer seek without which has always been within. Love is within you. Joy is within you. The Kingdom of God is within you. How blessed
we are.

Miracles can occur at any moment~ ask, believe, receive.

Namaste.

Pamela