I grew up, like many people, in a family who had a lot of Depression mentality and ways of thinking-- the belief that money was hard to come by and quick to leave, that is had to be struggle. It seemed to be not just a believe but a law that this was the way things was and thats the way it was-- "it's always been this way" kind of thing.
I've always felt that this way of thinking didn't quite sit right with me. Now, I feel a growing need to shed these inherited ways of thinking for good! They no longer serve me and they do not feel true within my heart. The truth is that the Universe has unlimited abundance! I am ready to tap into the flow of this abundance. I am going to the ocean of abundance with a semi truck to fill up- where in the past I think I've been going to the ocean with a bucket to fill up!
In my past experiences, money always showed up eventually and usually just in the nic of time! I've had my days of crying and desperately wondering how I could afford this or that...I've fallen into the ego-trap of believing that a lack of money was a reason to not follow my dreams. This was something to hide behind I think, to feed my fears of being successful and changing my life! Now I'm on the journey of closing the chapter of having a full time job for five years to beginning the chapter of living life as a full time student! There were other reasons that I allowed myself to resist taking this leap of faith for a couple of years- but money was definately one of them.
In the past I viewed my life as a struggle- that I had a decent paying job but high bills and was always counting my pennies at the end of the month. Now I see money flowing into my life abundantly... in the past, I thought- if things are tight with a full time job, how will I ever afford school? But, I have begun more and more to trust that
I will always be taken care of. The money will show up.
And it does!!!
Here's a little story of how trusting the money will show up, can work: I was at the Hay House I Can Do It Conference, and they were selling the usb wristbands that had all of the recordings of each workshop/keynote speaker. After the first night I decided this was something I'd love to have, because then I could re-listen to my favourite speakers/authors and I could share it with my mother and sister back home. It was $130.00. Now in my previous mindset, which no longer exists in the present moment- this was a big deal to me. I was so blessed that my sister paid for me to be able to go to the conference in the first place. But, I decided that I needed to have this wristband! lol And as I purchased it, I said that the money would show up, and I asked the angels to take care of this. Well, later that month when I got my income tax back-- it was more than I had anticipated. $130 more! The angels brought the money to me and I was soo excited and grateful!!
I am so very grateful that I've had family support and that there have been people that I received money from when I was in times of need. I have experienced guilt over this, but I was just reading Louise Hays "The Power Within You" and I need to come to peace with these emotions, express gratitude, and know that we repay each other in more ways than just money. So many of us are raised to believe that prosperity must be exchanged with prosperity. But there WILL be times when I will be able to give back to others. And we do help each other in ways such as offering advice, compassion, love, a smile etc... which are more valuable than money. So- guilt be gone!! I am grateful and I am ready to pass the good forward to others. :)
I am grateful for my experiences and for learning how to appreciate that which I receive. I forgive myself for any guilt, shame, embarassment, and fearful thoughts surrounding money.
I am ready to move forward now into a time of my life where I can easily afford that which I need. All of my bills are paid in full. All of my debts are paid in full. I can breathe easily knowing that I am taken care of now and always.
Thank you God for the lessons and the love.